Vsession

pulling and pushing colored bricks under and perhaps over the other with the challenge of keeping them stand still was the game of the night. a little movement made everyone fuss and cry with nervousness and excitement. then a deal, scheduled two days after the game, came before dashing through gengga's tiebreaker game with MEcode, MISSexy and moanGuy. it was a kind of deal no one among them had ever tried. exciting, isn't it?! they agreed upon the condition of whoever loses the game shoulders the expenses.

and the game was on! 

clashing of bricks was about to be witnessed and heard.

playing with moanGuy was no like other. he was making these weird sounds (that's why i named him moanGuy). i don't know, maybe he was just too excited about the game style. MISSexy and MEcode were laughing to death. anyway, having him in the game was fun. better hear him play!

"it's gonna fall on my part!" was Mecode's obvious defeat. and it was. the confidence of hitting the deal was the opposite of her pocket's. indeed, the pocket was not anymore excited about it.haha! kidding aside, wooh! finally, a date was set.

the much awaited day had come.

MISSexy was asking if they could have someone who knew about "coaching" the deal to go with them. then MEcode named some. however, they were cautious because these persons might be too loud literally. instead, they planned to go alone. before the "deal", MISSexy and moanGuy had some other businesses to finish before 5pm.

before the clock stoke five, Coach Maria came. what a relief! someone came who happened to be an expert of "doing" the deal. MEcode approached Coach Maria. and guess what she did, she just laughed!

heading to ****os, a lot of questions came for Coach Maria. it was the color questions and some descriptions and distinctions. good thing Coach Maria was very accommodating that she answered all their questions with her mocking laughs. and the green was the group's choice (as it sounded so nice with Coach Maria's persuasion).

since moanGuy was apparently the only guy in the group, he was tasked to purchase greens provided with MEcode's money. a table at the hidden corner was chosen. 

the deal proper.

Coach Maria still laughing.

moanGuy having the greens.

MEcode's "yes, this is it!"

MISSexy still scared yet excited.

green.

Coach Maria providing details and warnings.

the three others wondered with their unending situational questions.

cool.

hahahahaha.

shhheeet.

so-ganito-pala laughs

then, done!

MEcode thought the deal was over but MISSexy wanted more. yup! you read it right. who would have thought  MISSexy really wanted to try them all? (then MEcode's pocket was feeling even more nervous) and of course, there was Coach Maria's mocking laugh.

then gold came.

soon red.

to sum them all up, black.

woooh! that was tough.

full of excitement, though.

so pasaway, yet fulfilling.

so out of the comfort zone. 

making MEcode change her perceptions about people.

"hindi lahat nang nakikita mo at ginagawa ng iba ay TUNAY na masama."

let's call it the "Vsession".

2/12/11

11:59pm

theSafestPAIN

i'm sitting here in front of my computer desk with my blogger account on screen and tabs for my facebook and plurk accounts. i'm trying to write a new blog entry after more than a month of being a dormant blogger. it is a weird feeling like being a newbie when you're obviously not. perhaps it's because i'm having my blogger anxiety again, i guess, that i fuss over what sentence should come first then next. to get it off the screen, i'm alternately clicking my facebook and plurk accounts' tabs -reading status updates, checking on-line friends and typing my default plurk updates in for karma-ups, the usual things i do when spending my net-night. see how friends are just clicks away!

yes, just clicks away. but why is it so hard for me to check on him and say hello? damn! all i know is i fumble. hugs and imissyoumuch are merely the safest words i can post on his wall.

i don't have much courage to talk to my best friend whom i've been missing so much these days. as much as i want to hear my [2nd] mommy's voice, i just can't talk to her over the phone. i'm afraid i would just utter things not so helpful then throw myself into tears.

it pains me everytime mama asks me "Nakaulay mo na si Kev sa facebook?" and the safest answer i can say is [at least to me] "Dai man siya on-line." perhaps, that's the least i could do, not making any calls or anything that can make them [and apparently me] cry.

well, i guess avoidance coping strategies are over. i successfully kept my feelings for a week that i even refused to believe that it happened. i tried not to think about them and managed not to let what i know surface my awareness. it was the best for a short span of time but not anymore this time [unfortunately.hayyy.]. 

so tell me, am i too self-centered that i chose to be safest from their pain? 

the worst best friend anyone could ever have.

2/9/11

11:50pm

ME♥

oh how i wish i had my magic carpet just to give YOU my super tight healing CHIPKO.♥



12/21/10
11:51am

MEtheSinger

i am a singer on my own that...
makes me break out in random singing(again).

You're beautiful, that's for sure

You'll never ever fade

You're lovely, but it's not for sure

That I won't ever change

And though my love is rare

Though my love is true

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away

I don't know where my soul is

I don't know where my home is

And baby all I need for you to know is

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away

I don't know where my soul is

I don't know where my home is

And I need for you to know is

Your faith in me brings me to tears

Even after all these years in

And it pains me so much to tell

That you don't know me that well

And though my love is rare

Though my love is true

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away

I don't know where my soul is

I don't know where my home is

And baby all I need for you to know is

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away

I don't know where my soul is

I don't know where my home is

And baby all I need for you to know is

It's not that I wanna say goodbye

It's just that every time you try

To tell me, me that you love me

Each and every single day

I know, I'm going to have to eventually

Give you yea yea yea yea yea yea

And though my love is rare, rare, rare

And though my love is true, yea

Hey I'm just scared yea yea

That we may fall through, yea yea yea yea

I'm like a bird

I don't know where my soul is

I don't know where my home is

And baby all I need for you to know is

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away

I don't know where my soul is

I don't know where my home is

And baby all I need for you to know is

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away

I don't know where my soul is

I don't know where my home is

And baby all I need for you to know is

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away

I don't know where my soul is

I don't know where my home is

And baby all I need for you to know is

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away

I don't know where my soul is

I don't know where my home is

And baby all I need for you to know is

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away

I don't know where my soul is

I don't know where my home is

And baby all I need for you to know is

fly to where YOU want to be.

fly with your broken wings.

go fly and find YOU.

hugs.Ü

12/08/09

10:39pm

LOVEgame

good morning!

butterflies in my stomach

earlier than usual

waiting

phonecalls

text messages

thinking aloud

decoding symbols

station people (super salamat)

act naturally, as if nothing 's happening

14 halts

what he likes , what he does not

19 items 

"mali symbol mo."

maze

offiice

cubicle

usro

triumph

back to office

library

then  back to office again

[nakaabot pa pala ng Karlos, eh wala naman dun.]

"i'm lost. di ko na gets."

last clue

"walang clue baga."

magic word

guessing

hints

right word

"nasaan na?"

"pikit muna."

FROG...

"o, baka may tinatago ka pa."

bonuses 

yellow and green tags

letters from friends

"pabasa rin ako."

aloud 

reading

"tapos ka na?"

movie date

movie house

spoiler alert!spoiler alert!

"umiiyak ka noh?"

"shit, si mama!"

panic room

laughing out loud

stop mocking me

last letter of the day

"sabi daw! meron pa."

♥.♥

when OTHERNESS becomes ONENESS, then it's US

i hope everything made sense.

♥

12/04/10

post birthday surprise

SoNotME

i see people.

i admire people.

BUT

i have not entertained this damn thing this serious until i got to view your silhouette again.

fast heartbeat that felt so unwelcoming.

stunned, that i could not get my eyes off.

this is bullshit!

this drags ME off my cradle that comforts ME away from this.

this has never happened to ME in my entire life BEFORE.

BULATE MAN YAN!

11/30/10

9:45PM

SweetBreeze

Happy Birthday!

i wear red shirt today.

(the only red shirt i have)


11/26/10